getting outside myself

I WONDER IS IT PRIDE THAT SOMETIMES MOTIVATES ME?SOME TIMES IT DOES.WRITING ON THE ED MESSAGE BOARD I TRY TO REACH OUT TO OTHERS,IF IT ENDS UP I AM THE ONE WHO IS DRAWING THE ATTENTION(ITS ALL ABOUT ME--+NOT THE MESSAGE)GETTING NO RESPONSE---PRIDE GETS IN THE WAY OF ME LOOKING FOR THE APPLAUSE.THAT ONLY SERVES DISAPPOINTMENT.WHEN I GREET THE LORD,WORSHIP,PRAISE,KNOWING HE IS IN ALL MY LIFE CIRCUMSTANCES AND DESTINY,BECOMING INTO THE PLACE WHERE HE IS--- ALL IS QUITE,I LISTEN TO WHAT THE SPIRIT IS SAYING......I CANT DESCRIBE THE SOUND,BUT THERE ABSOLUTELY EXISTS.IT S EVIDENCE BRINGS ME TO A PLACE WHERE I STAY CONNECTED TO HIM AND AM ABLE TO HANDEL LIFE FROM A DIFFERENT LIGHT,,,,IT GIVES ME LOVE,JOY,PEACE LONG SUFFERING,GOODNESS,GENTLENESS,MEEKNESS,FAITH,WOW!THATS THE FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT.ID RATHER HAVE THOSE ATTRIBUTES THAN BE FOCUSED ONLY ON MYSELF. LOVE BEV