DISAPPOINTED

I`M SO UPSET, I GOT SO CAUGHT UP IN ALLOWING MY KIDS,HUSBAND,TO ABUSE ME,I ENDED UP ALLOWING MYSELF TO BE A VICTIM AGAIN. I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF FIRST BUT NO-ONE IS BEHAVING...HAHA! WHAT I AM LEARNING AT THIS POINT.....WHEN I SACRIFICE MYSELF,MY FOCUS IS ON THEM.IT`S IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO LOVE MYSELF FIRST.THEY BECOME FIRST.MY MOTIVE IS TO KEEP MY RECOVERY 1st.I CANT LOVE ANYONE,IF I DONT LOVE MYSELF.