sorrow

today I feel sad,angry,fed up stuck.I know i cant control what life brings my way,and i also know that this uncomfort is an internal issue prodding me to get help and find the solution.today i asked Laura to be my sponsor,and she stepped right up to the plate.a sigh of relieve.Feel a little safer...stuck in eating my rice cakes and peanutbutter,salads,fruit,some poultry.I hate the smell and look of meat.I`m willing to try something new tonight.I`m mad at Larry for god knows what.Ineed to see what he is carrying on his shoulders,and listen.I so much want to learn how to talk without me in the way.thats it for now......1st journel.8/26/08